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Monday, November 8, 2010

High expectations for unknown reasons...

Today is my birthday... Yeap... I am 29 and been celebrating my birthday since saturday... It started of with a huge party... Which was a lot better then I expected and today is going great so far... Lunch with colleagues, beautiful flowers to my office from my boyfriend, great wishes on my facebook from everyone... Thanx to all btw...;)

But there is this question bothering my head for the last week... Every year since I was a little kid, I had the tendency to make a huge deal out of my b-day... I don't know why... Some may say its bc I crave attention... But no... I thought about that too... Thats not it... Its st else... Ofcourse it has the attention part in it but not all is about that... (because I know that I only want my close people around me and some peace)So...

Why is the high expectation for unknown reasons???...

I always had high expectations for my birthday... started planning from months ago... fearing that it wont end up great... and finally... all ended up OK...

This year I decided not to do anything... at all... But again ended up celebrating it for 3 days... Dont get me wrong I love it... but still questioning myself... WHY?...

Then I noticed that... I am not a person with high expectations at all, and throughout my regular life I am more at ease, understanding and patient... in most cases lets say ;))) But on my b-day, for once I think people should be acting like that towards me... Close ones at least... :))) and maybe thats why I just want MY people to be with me at my b-day... Still keeping the group small for my high expectations, in order not to be crushed...

So after a week of questioning...

Sorry guys, bare with me, but I still have 8 more hours to act spoiled... :))))))))

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